HEY EVERYBODY

i just found out how the leopard got its spots!  

worst night ever *check*

worst timing ever *check*

worst choice of person *check*

next time i'm really thinking long and hard before i do something stupid.  if you read this and you care for me, make sure really i do think long and hard.  

DUDE

I'm so stoked on life right about now. Thanksgiving was amazing and i couldn't be happier about how it turned out with my family. Then on black friday I got to work the evening shift in the shop. I have never seen more people in one mall than when I showed up at 4 and the parking lot was full, the stored were shoulder to shoulder and people were waiting just to walk into stores. Great times spent just shooting teh bull with people before I talk them into buying stuff. I went out to the Gap and got hooked up with some 60% off sweaters! Yeah boi!

Oh how I

would love for people who I can talk honestly with.

this is it

this apartment is above a bar.  it's basically like a volcano of babes.  the babes just spew out of the top and into your place.  i mean, can it get any better?

You know who you are,

Don't hang up this time

I know it was me who called it over but

I still wish you had fought me till your dying day

if spring can take the snow away, can it melt away all your mistakes?

today i realized a few things that, sad as it seems, i've never noticed before.  i'm really tired of people that are fake, even in the slightest bit.  so i'm calling everyone out on it, better be on the lookout cause i might be hiding behind a bush just to call bull shit! 

so it led me realize that some of the things i've been shooting for in life i'm only doing to make other people happy.  why would i do that? i'm not sure, but i feel better knowing i'm doing what i really want.  i've also been spending a lot of time on garageband playing instruments and my buddy teaches me keys and how instruments flow with each other.  i have absolutely no concept for how to keep time.. mad props to ANDY for putting all my ideas into action, he is a genius on the musical typing.  

p.s. if you're a girl and reading this, you'll love me too

Fashion Nugget

so here i sit on a wednesday night.  after getting out of night class and doing my homework, i begin an extraordinary challenge.  my roommate and i are have a weight loss competition over the next two weeks.  we had weigh-ins tonight and took a couple pictures for the people.  i'm banking on dropping about 15lbs.  i think that shoudn't be too bad and an accomplishment as well.  

i've been trying to find music that is new to me lately.  i haven't found any new bands, but i have found a LOT of bands that i love.  for instance, i've been listening to cake, alphabeat, elbow, and rilo kiley for the most part lately.  i'm not sure anything else could satisfy me now.  i got a good grade on my practical, i couldn't be happier right now. 

Portions For Foxes

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately, between long drives and long rides I've come to the conclusion that I'm not really sure what I want to do with my life and that doesn't bother me.  I'm living life to the fullest and I have absolutely no complaints.  I go to classes every day to fulfill my education even though I don't really want to be in medicine anymore, but that doesn't bother me.  I enjoy the vast knowledge I get in my classes and that is what helps keep me motivated.  I've thought about switching my major to either music technology or multimedia production.  I'm not really sure which though because I'm very interested in both of the programs.  They both have pro's and con's that wouldn't be too difficult to deal with which make them prime candidates for majors.  

I've been listening to a lot of different music lately.  I've taken a liking to Bring Me The Horizon, Copeland, Lupe, Iron & Wine, MGMT, and the Kanye mixtapes.  I use to be able to listen to popular rap music, but after listening to the quality verses of Lupe Fiasco and Common it is very hard to give the rest any credit.  For those of you who don't know, Lupe Fiasco and Common are leagues ahead of most rappers.  The quality and their rhymes show that they can rap about things other than sex, drugs, and women.  If you want an example, listen to the song "Us Placers" from the Can't Tell Me Nothing mixtape.  Lupe's verse says it all.  

How the leopard got its spots

Today I write to you in a very hopping environment, the library.  That is because our power got turned off today.  Awesome I know right.  My roommate is apparently too ignorant to listen when I said to pay the bills right when you get them.  Anyway...

I'm pretty pumped because school is going well and I don't really have anything to complain about, at all.  I only have one question, how did the leopard get its spots?  

thursday nights...

i went down to broad ripple tonight for a red bull event, couldn't be happier

Wolf like me

Women are always intriguing.  I've been in my fair share of awkward and complicated almost relationships.  I thought that I'd met girls who were more confusing than anyone I could meet in the future.  I was mistaken.  

In a recent conversation I had a bit of an epiphany.  We were talking about a girl that would avoid him after she had done things that he didn't approve of.  She was always nice to him, but always avoided talking about things that really mattered.  She acted like she was his friend, but don't real friends tell the truth? 

She either doesn't feel comfortable sharing her emotions for fear she will look weak or she is scared that facing her true feelings will bring even more emotions to surface.  I think, she is terrified of other people knowing how she truly feels.  Terrified.  Through these false fronts, she creates a new persona.  She hides her real self to be more socially accepted by those her "friends" deem as popular or desirable.  

Now, I know I've already over-evaluated the situation and I'd like to apologize.  

But why can't she just be real?

So this is life..

God is great and God has brought me things that most people would die to have.  God has brought me health.  God regularly lets things into my life I couldn't be more thankful for.  Yet, for some unknown reason, I still don't know what to believe.  I feel that I've lived my life to the fullest.  I've sinned when it felt right.  I've prayed to God when I thought I'd done wrong, but sometimes I feel it was hollow.  

Was God really listening to my prayers?  Will he really forgive me?  How can a man who gets to stand at the front of the church tell me God will forgive me?  He has no clue what I've done.  He has no idea what I could do in the future.

I have trouble believing that a group of men can organize God's desires for mankind and create something good.  I have faith that people will read the bible and at least understand that sensible morals are something to live life by, but I don't think organized religion can do the things that practicing religion on you own can. 

I feel blessed that I've met a select few people in my life that have the same thoughts I have.  I thank God for those people and the security they have gave my mind.  And I thank you.